Tilt-a-whirl

​This week I’ve felt really…off. I woke up on Monday thinking I would seize the week. I’m normally very good at setting goals, even if they’re ambitious, and achieving them. When I was making my list this time, though, something just wasn’t right. 
 
A gray cloud seemingly hung over me as I worked through Monday. I did my best to ignore it, but looking back, I’m pretty sure someone, somewhere was trying to tell me something. 
 
Then, on Monday night, our internet crapped out. (Past experience made me groan out loud. Verizon is not the…easiest company to deal with.)
 
I don’t want to turn this into a complaint session, so I will just say that Tuesday was not a great day. By the time the sun set, I felt overwhelmed, frustrated, and out of control. 
 
I looked at my list of goals and sighed. No way was I mentally ready to tackle what I had set out to! Then I felt like even more of a failure!
 
But what if you don’t do everything. What if you only do one thing?
 
The idea came to me as I was lying down Tuesday night, preparing to toss and turn instead of rest. 
 
What if…
 
On Wednesday, I began the day by tossing aside my old to-do list and starting fresh—with just one item. I figured if I could get just that one thing done, I would be ok. 
 
And, pals, I did it! I did the one thing!
 
And accomplishing that one thing gave me the mental space to do another thing, and still another. No, I did not do All Of The Things I set out to try and accomplish on Monday, but I ended Wednesday without the unbearable weight of disappointment on my shoulders. I wound up approaching Thursday in a similar fashion and ended the week feeling relatively successful.
 
You’d think I’d be better at this mental health stuff by now, seeing as how I’ve wrestled with anxiety and insomnia for most of my adult life. I’m never going to “get better” but keeping an open mind has helped me, even if it’s just to realize that sometimes I’m only going to be able to achieve something very small.
 
Like this blog post, for example!
 
A Thing I Enjoyed This Week
 
This past Wednesday gave us the season finale of Loki. Enough said!
 
See you here next week, pals!

Flowers for your enjoyment.